9/16/2024

I'm mostly typing right now to practice actual typing and better my skills with that. I never fully learned how in school or otherwise. It's mostly difficult with replacing my fingers in the right spot and some of the further letters where I have to use my pinky or lesser used letters and symbols like the top row with the numbers or period. Probably doesn't help that I am on my bed with a laptop in a weird position.

But I am also typing to just vomit out my feelings since I feel all jumbly about not having a job and having such a difficult time with this name change process. I have put it off for so long for various reasons but now it just now might be costing me a job since I haven't finished the process and my documents don't match. Every step has 52 sub steps its so annoying. Plus the main step I am on right now is the birth certificate change which has a minimum of six weeks wait time. Which is the part where I am not going to be able to keep this job that I was FINALLY able to get after months. Well. It has to be done. I thankfully still have some money and have a safety net to help out for awhile. I just hope this doesn't take too long since I read some people say it took them months. I don't know if I have months. Its already been months. I will just do what I can do and go from there. At least the last main step after this is getting an updated ID and thats easy from both what I've heard and what the DMV has told me. Let's hope that is true. After THAT is all just minor things like library card or whatever else and not important documents that require other important documents like a red tape ouroboros or something.

Anyway I hope and think everything will be OK. It has to. I just have to start with this.

8/6/2024

Had an interview with [redacted] today and I hope I get it. I don't particularly care about the company but its a big chain, which would make it easy to transfer when I move since theres a decent amount in the area im looking at. Plus I'm running low on funds so it would be kind of helpful to IDK, Have a job? Lmao. I'm actually kind of too excited and hopeful about this right now after only having an interview but I will let myself have this feeling for now. Besides, It's helping me think out my plan and how things can play out.

Anyway besides that I am making good progress on focusing and curating my habits and hobbies. I have a lot of bookmarks, papers, files and whatnot to organize but I will get it done. Most of it will be getting deleted, But I do want to take on the task of trawling through it to keep anything important or interesting.

8/2/2024

It's so daunting, but I really need to start working on my plan to move out. I have got to stop letting things distract me and making me complacent in any given situation. My latest few excuses were mostly people and friends. The thing is I am pretty much always going to meet people and become fond of them, if I decided not to move yet because I was enjoying my time with them then obviously I'm never going to move out. Enough is enough!

Anyway, Theres a lot of steps, money to save up, and tasks I have to finish to be able to move so I better get on that. I'm not going to write out my whole list here or anything but I will definitely post updates here and there on what I have accomplished